Not my Fault ..... okay ... maybe it is ....

shitty

Well I now know what Heaven felt like … Damn it … 1 tenth a point away from the fucking 2.0 and I am Financially on suspension … nothing about suspension to the school mind you … which basically means .. I need a few classes online to bring the damn thing up … because I seriously can’t afford anything else … which pisses me off, 1 percent away from that fucking C in Math … and I would have had exactly a 2.0 … fuck you very much Mr. Gartner

Sleep deprived

Okay .. I procrastinated on it all day, and actual had a page written, but seriously … going on 6 am and only have three pages of a 4-6 page book review done .. i feel like pulling my hair out and throwing the book across the room. I don’t even know if I’m writing the damn thing the way he wants us to, all because he says he’ll explain something to us and then never does .. it’s really frustrating.

To top it all off over Easter weekend I’m not only going to be basically spending Easter by myself, because lyssa was invited to Morgans, but I’m going to be spending it tossing my Teaching Notebook together … Hopefully I can get 100 Teaching idea down before that comes to play … I wonder if he actually wants a notebook, or a binder … once again he doesn’t explain these things to us and we are all always lost …

sleepy head needing more time

Seriously think that things aren’t working on my side this week … I’ve got five more Double column note articles to go, and have to have them done by 7:30 am tomorrow … add in the fact that I also need to study for my Earth Science Lab exam .. and I think I’m pretty screwed …

this week has been most non non heinous …. well minus the fact that it’s 80s slang week …

long time …

I feel like I fail at this damn thing … seriously …

So here’s the run down .. Homeward bound this weekend, and that makes me happy, the only plans I really have are to spend time with Stef for her -day … and going to the bank …

Sleepy sleepy

SO yeah … I totes hit snooze on the alarm clock and apparently in doing so I turned the damn thing off .. Missed my 8 am .. *pouts* and I effing like that class .. Intro to teaching Writing … fun fun … I guess it all worked out in the end anyway .. for the fact that I don’t feel all that great and my stomach hates me….

so Obama is officially the president … go him … seriously …

I’m rereading Sherrilyn Kenyon’s Dance with the Devil and feel like I need to be shot .. this would make it the fourth time …..

Oh Oh on good news …. creepy myspace guy is no longer talking to me …

I’m off to try and nap again .. unless my momma decided she needs to call and wake me up again as she did after I got out of my Concepts of Math class .. and damn it I was actually having a good dream that DIDN’T involve anything weird!

UGH

I totes just had a Charlie Brown moment … stubbed my toe on the couch … and out cam the UGH!!

Anyway ….
i just an update was in need considering it’s been ages …

I have a new room mate … her name is Brittani …

*lifts up grape juice* here’s to hoping she’s as talking as Anissa, Cammy, and I are … and that we don’t scare her away ….

Hello World …. My name is Tarra …. wait you don’t Care?

Hum, that’s how if feels right now .. then again … Want to know something sad because I’ve been staring at the effing thing since yesterday …

“Because I could not stop for Death —
He kindly stopped for me —
The Carriage held but just Ourselves —
And immortality.

We slowly drove — he knew no Haste —
And I had put away
My labor and my leisure too,
For His Chivility —”(Fr 479)
~ Emily Dickinson

Want to know something sad ….. that was all typed out without me looking at the effing book!

I totes need to go to bed

So it’s almost four o’clock in the fucking morning … and I’m up watching National Geographic …. and downloading and listening to Radio Bam ….. I seriously need to just tell the world to fuck off and got o bed so that I can really dig into and finish my paper …..

Holy Hell ….

So … bacsically I’m stealing interweb from the hospital …. *yay me*
My grandma was to have a triple bypass … something has gone wrong ….
Their perdiction … she’s going to have a massive heart attack on the back of her heart.

that is all … for there is nothing else to say …

oh dear goddess …

Midnight past me 42 minutes ago .. I’m alone in the room … watching Home Improvement …

Oh the joys …

Anyway … it’s made me miss my Nyjah … *le sigh* i totes want another snake …. I miss the silky feeling of scales moving across my skin. a weird thing to miss … but seriously what I miss. I highly doubt my mom would let me get another one while still living at home, considering how freaked out she was with Nyjah in the house.

*le sigh*

On another note … I know what I’m going to do with my presentation for Whitman Dickinson .. or at least I figured out half of it … I’m going to use the Uniklubi song Huomenna … with one of Dickinson’s poems … why?

I translated the song *insert yay me clap*

Huomenna

Niin he löytävät toisensa tuhansien tähtien joukosta loistavat niin kirkkaina toisensa ovat sidottuina

kaikki se, mitä me joskus valittiin

Vaikka meille annettaisiin koko avaruus vain hetki, kun sen saisin katoamaan
vaikka maailma eteeni polvistuisi, sen vain saisin palamaan ja huomenna, taas huomenna olen surullinen

Varjo meitä kantaa kun loppuun palaa kaikki se, mitä me joskus valittiin

Vaikka meille annettaisiin koko avaruus vain hetki, kun sen saisin katoamaan
vaikka maailma eteeni polvistuisi, sen vain saisin palamaan ja huomenna, taas huomenna olen surullinen

Vaikka meille annettaisiin koko avaruus vain hetki, kun sen saisin katoamaan
vaikka maailma eteeni polvistuisi, sen vain saisin palamaan ja huomenna, taas huomenna olen surullinen

English:

Tomorrow

So they find each other thousands of stars shining from among the so-Frequencies are again lashed

All the things, we are sometimes elected

Even if we give the whole space, only a few moments when I could get it to disappear
Even though the World kneel down ethylene, so only I could get lit up, and tomorrow, but tomorrow I am sad

They shadow us in a position when the end will return, all of the things we are sometimes elected

Even if we give the whole space, only a few moments when I could get it to disappear
Even though the World kneel down ethylene, so only I could get lit up, and tomorrow, but tomorrow I am sad

Even if we give the whole space, only a few moments when I could get it to disappear
Even though the World kneel down ethylene, so only I could get lit up, and tomorrow, but tomorrow I am sad

now my only objective is to find a poem that goes really well with it …… and Hope that it wasn’t already taken by someone in the class.