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Right now I have two papers due the 10th … well .. one Paper due the 10th one rough draft due the 10th and final due the 24th … and I want to rip my hair out ….
If I don’t bring up two grades from 46% and 54% by the end of the month I lose and grant and have no way to pay for next Trimester …
I’m half tempted to say fuck it all and not come back if I can’t raise them, get a job at the McDonald’s *Scrunches nose* transfer to MoWo, hope the grades come up, while paying off Loan considering just the Gov’t Grants pay for MoWo … *shakes head*
Then again … I’m trying my damnedest to bring these fuckers up and it seems that the harder I try … the deeper I fail ….
I just want to go all the way back to third grade, or time travel there and tell the past me : “Heaven Hayward is going to knock you over next year, she’ll be your best friend for life. Chad hunter ends up as a waste of time, Do you school work no matter how boring it is, Listen to all the music that Andy Erdrich tells you to in 8th grade, Choose playing the Drums again instead of Violin. Don’t Let Lyssa date Cody …. and what ever you do, do not I repeat do not think about suicide in the fifth grade, the seventh grade, the eighth grade, or your freshman year of high school It’s a waste of time.”
I can keep going on .. and hopefully past me would be smart enough to listen …. Goddess knows I was enough of a comic book and Scifi geek even back then that I would have taken me seriously.
Who wants to build a time machine with me?
3 years ago